Real vs Perfect

I was hoping to be fully recovered by now and come back better than ever but I'm left feeling a bit raw. It's as if I am seeing everything with new eyes. My perspective has shifted and I am over stimulated with thoughts. My mind is going a million miles an hour in different directions and it won't slow down. It's an amazing place to be in but the newness is uncomfortable and I find myself wanting to rush out of the process. Get back to the comfortable and known.