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About 3 weeks ago, Nick and I went for a walk in a neighbourhood that we love and have dreamt about living in. As we walked, we dreamed of buying a home in inner city Calgary where we would be able to walk and bike everywhere.
If you follow me on instagram you may have heard my story before. 4 years ago I took the biggest risk of my life.
Yesterday while walking Leroy with my boyfriend I started reflecting on it. I think my exact words were "Holy shit I really just went for it, didn't I? I was so sure of myself. That's the wildest thing I've ever done"
Anyone else feel last week was extra long and hard? I couldn't sleep, I felt sluggish, and my anxiety was sitting higher than it usually does. This happens every once in a while for me.
After speaking with a few friends and realizing it wasn't just me feeling this way, I thought I'd share with you all 4 ways I keep my anxiety in check.
As I sauntered into the gym for the first practice, I stopped by the office door to double check the list. Not really too worried, my eyes scanned that piece of paper fairly quickly, and then again more slowly. My name wasn't on the list.
Learning my thresholds and being able to listen to my body to know what its needs has been tough. I used to push myself past these times thinking that I was weak, or lazy. That some how I needed to 'keep up' with some unrealistic expectation I had set out for myself.
Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react.
I remember seeing this quote as a kid and not really getting it. But the more life unfolds I realize how much my quality of life is controlled by my response to it. Recognizing that what is happening is only a fraction of the equation and the real power is in my response.
It takes courage to come forward. How do I know? Because I have been paralyzed in fear about speaking up.
For many of you this subject may make you feel uncomfortable or even make you cringe that I would share so openly and honestly. I get it. If that’s you and if this is as far as you read, know that’s OK.
My greatest feeling of success doesn't come from creating great hair, that in it's self is subjective, but seeing that you love your hair.
There is no such thing as being perfect, or being the best. There is no reaching the top. Just do the best you can right here and now and learn from everything along your way.
The clear vision and dream that I had of my life had vanished. And with out a clear vision of what's ahead I had no idea how proceed in life.
Just before moving here I bought 500 fake followers for $2.99. Yup, I'm admitting it guys. I sold out.
Know that you deserve to be treated with nothing but love and respect. Especially from yourself.
The conversation went great, I was proud of myself for speaking truthfully and honestly and into the discomfort instead of assuming, being vague and feeling hurt in the end out of my own lack of communication.
I was hoping to be fully recovered by now and come back better than ever but I'm left feeling a bit raw. It's as if I am seeing everything with new eyes. My perspective has shifted and I am over stimulated with thoughts. My mind is going a million miles an hour in different directions and it won't slow down. It's an amazing place to be in but the newness is uncomfortable and I find myself wanting to rush out of the process. Get back to the comfortable and known.